One of those times...

ever had one of those days/times when u just cant finish, or u cant be good enough... well this is kinda like that, i'm totally lost, i'm cleaning my room, for pretty much no reason, but i feel like i have to keep going.. i feel like i'm not doing something that's supposed to be done.. i just plain dont get it. this feeling really blows, i mean every1 need that accomplished feeling, and u cant get it if some1 is beating u.. but in my case there really isn't ne1, i just cant succeed :-/ i think i'm gonna stop so i can stop by aloha durring lunch tmrw.



i think i figured it out, i'm finding all these old things in my room that i passed by when i moved down here, or have been brought in her after i moved in, that totally remind me of my failures, i got this ribbon from sophmore year swimming districts, where pat out touched me by a tiny bit, but he got to go to state and i didn't. then there are old pictures of me and my old girlfriend that she gave back to me :-/ ...the room smells like vanilla.... so yea this is a pretty crappy feeling, if u ever start to feel this way, get away from things that remind u of ur old failures and do something new...