Donnie Darko

so i just finished watching donnie darko, and if you haven't seen it it's about a guy who basicly gets lucky and then does a bunch of bad stuff, gets a new girlfriend and ends up getting his girl friend killed bcuz of what he's doing. so he realized that he can travel back to when he got lucky and die in that accident, adn everything that was bad that he did doesn't happen, and the girl that he didn't even know at the time is still alive, so everything is happier.

So i started thinking, if i could go back to when i first met with meghan, would i still meet with her if i knew what was going to happen. and u wanna know the answer? well, i was thinking about how if i never met with her i couldn't have made her think that leaving this guy was a good thing, and i wouldn't have out her thru the pain of making a decision between us, and i wouldn't have gotten myself into trouble for being with her when she was still with her old boyfriend, and all around u would think i'd be better off. well i dont, i think that if i never met her, matthew would be screwing her right now, and they'd be doing it for another 3 weeks straight, and uno what? i think that matthew would just go off as soon as she was gone and get another girlfriend. to have fun with. well i'm not for that, so for as much shit as i put every1 thru, i'm glad i did it. if it really is over, then it's over, i'll deal with it, but i do not in any way regret what i've dont with meghan in the last 3 months...


coincedence... our 3 month aniversiary would be the new death day (06/06/06....666....satan's number) w/e